Friday, November 20, 2009

Don't sweat the small stuff...

As much as I would LOVE to say that all the small stuff is easy to ignore, dismiss, or overlook, that would not be true.  Over the last few weeks, our family has been bombarded by the small stuff and all the details that come with each thing.  It's amazing how the little stuff can whittle away at your faith so quickly and effectively!  I find it so bizarre that I'm at perfect peace not knowing in what way God is going to provide financially for our family each month, but not knowing how to handle childcare when I go into labor or sick children who can't go to school and now need a sitter while we're at my doctor's appointment just sends me into a tailspin.

Of course, I know part of it is because of hormones raging with only 2 days until my due date.  Meliya coming down with strep last week and a sinus cold that she shared with me (the cold) only complicates matters.  I'm tired, my body hurts, and I can't seem to breath with my mouth closed because of snot...I know this all contributes to my mindset but should it? 

So today, with several little stresses behind us: Dad had 3 stints put in on Wednesday but is home and doing well, baby's room is finished, baby's stuff is clean, dog is clean with a fresh hair cut, house is clean, sickness is subsiding, details are starting to fall into place for everything else, Dave is at an interview, little projects are complete, the wash is going, etc...I'm going to choose to put a smile on my face and believe this baby girl is coming SOON!  My body is ready to evict her and I'm ready to hold her sweet self in my arms!  Of course, Meliya is over-the-moon excited to see her too and can hardly wait for her arrival! 

One thing I am learning...slowly...is that life is never planned, only theorized or estimated.  Plans are not for living, they are only a meek guideline of possibilities.  The more I step out in faith believing God will take care of this or that, the more I realize He does take care of it only it's usually not the way I anticipate.  For someone who likes to know how things are all going to fall into place, God is really leaving me in the dark on a lot.  It's not a matter of planning for contingencies like I once believed.  It's more a matter of letting go and giving God reign over everything out of my reach and most that is in my reach!  If only these lessons would sink into this stubborn brain a little easier!!

Well, here is a recap of the wonderful things that have been happening in the Teer house.  The baby's room is done!!  Here are a few pictures:


With craziness all around, our bills and provisions for them have been up in the air.  However, God has proven Himself faithful again...and again...and again!  We had received a hospital bill for a lab visit from 2 months ago that was not in line with what we expected.  After many communications back and forth between us, the insurance company, the hospital and my doctor, it looks like the mix up is cleared up leaving us without owing anything extra.  YIPPY!  We had also been preparing for the impending hospital bill with the delivery.  Knowing what money we had saved up prior to Dave's layoff was barely enough to cover the rough estimate of what we expected, we were trying to figure out how God was going to work it all out.  Well, He came through once again!  The hospital called yesterday with the estimated charges which seem to be in line with what we expected.  We also had an unexpected visitor on Wednesday bless us with a momentous cash gift to help us any way we needed.  Other blessings have come in the mail that were not only unexpected but very substantial.  God is good!  I've always been taught that everything is God's and that He chooses how to allocate everything according to His perfect will.  I guess I never fully understood how amazingly He can rearrange His finances to provide for His children, allowing money to ebb and flow according to His will without any regard to our earthly rules or expectations.  What an incredible privelege it has been to be a part of this beautiful picture unfolding!

Now for the funny pics!  Here I am with only 3 days to go until her due date.  Hopefully, she'll be making her grand debut sometime in the next 2 days before the Thanksgiving rush hits the hospital!




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